Once the cover for my book was set, I checked Amazon first thing every morning to see if Gap Year Girl would appear, knowing that once it was posted online, I could let myself believe I would become a published author. Seeing it live, I would feel validated. Like so many, I have mixed feelings about Amazon. Is it the great evil empire putting mom and pop neighborhood shops out of business or has it expanded the market by making buying books so easy. No matter how I feel about the behemoth, the explosion of emotion in my chest the morning my book appeared when I clicked was overwhelming. There it was: the cover with me on it and the endorsements I’d gathered listed below. If this is how I feel seeing it on a screen, just how will I feel, I wondered, if a printed copy of Gap Year Girl ends up sitting on a physical, and not just a virtual, bookstore shelf. My heart flutters at the thought.